Trust me, ‘YOU ARE ENOUGH’
I think everyday. I think hard. I think and try to imagine that today would be the dawn of the day when I would start writing regularly. Each day would be the harbinger of a new story, a new post. But time just keep going, shuffling my thoughts and the daily routine. Time just pushes the order of the things. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, showers, cleaning, organising, social media, events, summer holiday, the damn routine kicks in and fights with my thoughts. In between my days of trying to write, I read so many beautiful posts by other people about their journeys, their work, their stories that for a brief period of time, I felt completely useless. ‘May be I am not good enough’. What can I bring to the table?
Everything is already talked about, there are hundreds of bloggers writing about parenting, lifestyle, fashion, food and the likes. I am not an expert in any of those. There are times when my children misbehave and I feel that I should not be writing about parenting. What do I know? Look at my children. What do I write about? What do I share? What is my forte? Total chaos and confusion out in the middle. May be I should find something in between. I want to sneak out, bend down, slip through the headings and come up with something of my own. Just like a swimmer, diving in and coming out from a completely different side of the pool. Just like playing pool and smashing the ball in through a surprising hole which nobody could ever think of. Aha, that’s it. So, it’s not about parenting or lifestyle or fashion or kids or food. Good job, as the name says ‘mumways’. This was my ‘Inside Out’ (the film, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inside_Out_(2015_film) moment by the way. The cells were arguing and no cell was willing to listen to the fellow cell. The voices were getting so loud.
While contemplating my ideas, I felt that I don’t have to be good enough. I just have to be ‘enough’. Yes, I just have to be enough. Isn’t it? Suddenly, I took a deep sigh of relief. Victory! I defeated them. Naughty cells in the brain slowed down and started to pay attention to me. One cell called out like a union leader and said ‘Yes, enough! Guys, she just have to be enough.’ And everyone kind of joined in and started screaming in joy and jubilation.
So my colleagues, mummies, girls and everyone, here’s is a shout out to all of you. Whenever you are in doubt or checking if you have any expertise, critiquing your own voice, remember that you don’t have to be good enough.
YOU ARE ENOUGH!
Much love
Suranjita
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