Scary but good scary, tearful but not gloomy
All you need is ‘you’, telling yourself it’s all going to be okay
When you have to make a decision to go back to work or something lands up on your lap that makes you decide to go back to work…
How do you decide, it’s the right way and time for you? How do you decide that all the rush hour train rides, traffic, arranging for the pick-ups and drop offs would be all worth it? You have a toddler at home and you haven’t known separation yet, how do you decide with so much of emotional baggage? I find it very difficult to answer any of the questions. So not even attempting to answer. I would like to think in a way, which would make my life a bit easy. Just go for it and see how you get on. Give it a few months and see if it’s not dragging you down. If the workplace, the people you work with and the set up with regards to your childcare arrangements are ok, then there is nothing to lose, just give it a go.
I would say don’t get too analytical about it. Organise for a good childcare and leave the rest to the universe. Like me, if you tend to look for things only when there is a real need for it, then a slight alteration in that attitude would be helpful. Planning the work commitments with school holidays, school functions, sports day, coffee mornings requires a little bit of time but once it’s set, it saves a lot of time. Also getting your work wear ready would save the hassle of the last minute rush. Buy things, which are not in the category of ‘high maintenance’. Personally I don’t like ironing, so I would buy tops or shirts, which doesn’t require the element of ironing. You do everything such as organise the kids’ room, organise orientation for the babysitter, organise clothes, organise drop off and pick ups, even after that there is one thing which is guaranteed. The feelings of separation from your child with some water works. I think with time, everything tends to settle down and so will you.
Overwhelming, daunting, a bit too much it may seem, but give it a go because there is no other way of finding out. When your heart reasons with you and gives you hundreds of reasons to try, just try and see how it goes. I feel good when I write this because I needed a boost myself.
Cheers to all of you who are outside at work and to all of you who are always on call in the house!!