Soulful comfort food for thought
A generous squish of a lemon on a hot spicy plate of food, the tangy citrusy bubble of a feeling once you see that platter and the smoke that goes up your nostrils and warms up the coccles of your heart. That’s the kind of dish I would be happy to dig in. The food that looks heavenly, smells gorgeous and you know that it’s going to be comforting. I may not be able to express it properly but I have been longing to write a post which is comforting, soulful, sincere and profound just like a plate of comfort food. But time has been on time. Whether you like it or not, it is doing it’s job well. Time has relentlessly been working and it kept on going. Although, it feels just like yesterday. Yet when I count on my fingers, four months have whipped by. It’s been four months since I wrote my last post.
It feels rusty. It feels all new. I’ve even forgotten my password for my website. I haven’t checked my mailbox for months. I haven’t posted anything on the facebook page for mumways. I have probably lost all my readers. I have to begin from the beginning. At this moment, I cannot beat myself for not producing a soulful piece of writing but I should pat myself on the back for beginning yet again. I’ve missed writing and interacting with people through mumways. I am so sorry for being incommunicado. Hope you are doing well! Dreams, things that you love to do, they all desiccate if you don’t protect them. I have been ignoring my happy places by shadowing them with other things.
There are so many resources right at your finger tips. I mean you have the whole world in your smart phone. Isn’t it? Books, web series, movies, songs, the list is endless. If you happen to chance upon a video, then there will be suggestions on your feed. It’s a maze of distractions. I have been feeding on them and crediting them in the hope of creating something constructive in the future. I have seen and read so much content that I don’t feel confident. My consumption is getting more than creation. I was watching movies, web series and reading anything and everything to get away from something. My love and emotions were homeless. May be I didn’t want to think. I wanted to be on autopilot forever. But there are no hiding places, you cannot hide from your conscience.
When your inner voice warns you that may you are not doing it right then just pause and ponder. I have been trying to post something for months now but I didn’t feel right. It wasn’t coming from the heart. It wouldn’t have been good. But I have realised that no matter what, I should carry on and create something anyways. Once I start, the flow will come back and I will get inspired to do a better job.
This post is about creating when you are feeding on external resources to find motivation. To be honest, you will know it when you are doing more and feeding on less resources. You will feel confident about the product in hand than the hundreds of ideas in mind. Countless content on your head has no meaning if it’s not out in the world constructively. I hope I am making sense here. Keep working on your ideas and dreams, you will see that the journey itself feels fulfilling.